How to Control the Weight - Carrying Too Much

“Atlas is the image of a man who is carrying the burden of the Self — the whole weight of meaning — and has no help to carry it.” - Carl Yung

There’s a weight that no scale can measure.

It’s the kind that doesn’t budge

no matter what you eat (or how much you don't),

how hard you try, or how much you punish yourself for not getting it “under control.”

You’re trying to control the weight —but it’s the control that’s creating it.

Weight is what happens when you’ve had to prove it

over and over, that you’re the one who will hold it all.

It's not like you even want to hold it,

but the world taught you that you had to.

Somewhere along the way, life showed you that things fall apart unless you hold them together. So you did.

You learned to anticipate, compensate,

To manage, over-function, be prepared for everything — even if no one else was.

And in doing so, you split from the one thing that actually creates safety: trust.

Not blind optimism. Not bypassing.

But deep, embodied trust that you are not here to hold the whole world in your body.

When that trust breaks, the body compensates. It stores. It buffers. It braces.

It carries — because it thinks no one else will.

The Illusion of Control

This is what really sucks - It doesn't even have to be TRUE!

You might have just had it beat in your head as a child

that you need to "be more responsible"

and when you finally are, you turn it up too damn much.

You don’t have to feel controlling to be stuck in control.

Hyper-responsibility is control.

So is perfectionism.

So is emotional labor.

So is being the one who remembers, tracks, regulates, reminds, cleans up, and manages it all!

But it’s not fine.

And your body knows it.

Control creates pressure.

Pressure brings inflammation.

Inflammation brings pain — and then you try to control that, too.

Which stops the process. Which keeps you stuck.

Weight Comes Last

Symptoms don’t start in the body. They end there.

The spiritual wound comes first: “I have to hold everything.”

Then the mental loop: “If I don’t, something bad will happen.”

Then the emotional pattern: guilt, fear, resentment, shame.

And then — the body adapts.

And your body responds, cushioning you from a world that never felt safe.

It’s building a buffer between you and the expectations you’ve absorbed for a lifetime.

It’s trying to keep you alive — by carrying what you won’t let go of.

But Most People Start with the Body

They try to lose the weight physically first.

New workout plans. New food rules. Detoxes. Accountability apps.

The message is always the same: If I can control the body, I’ll finally feel safe.

But what if the body isn’t the problem?

What if the weight is the result of a deeper story — not the cause?

You can eat clean, follow the plan, and cut sugar —

and still be heavy with resentment, pressure, grief, and unmet need.

You can track every bite and still feel like your body is betraying you.

But it’s not betrayal. It’s communication!

So what is your body saying?

Before you try to change it, listen.

Not to the number on the scale, but to the load it’s been carrying for you.

Ask yourself:

• What am I holding that no one else sees?

• Who am I protecting by carrying this silently?

• What would collapse if I stopped holding it together?

• What expectations am I feeding — and are they even mine?

• What part of me believes I deserve this weight?

• If this isn’t about food… what is it actually about?

This is where the work begins.

With radical honesty about what you carry — and what you wish you didn't have to.

Your Miasm Is Showing: Weight Edition

This isn’t just metaphor. It’s energetic patterning.

Each of the chronic miasms — the inherited tendencies that shape how we react to stress — holds “weight” in a different way:

✧ Psora - Carries guilt. Tries to deserve rest.

Believes symptoms are punishment for not being good enough.

Weight sits in the anxiety — never doing enough, never quite clean.

✧ Sycotic - Carries secrets. Suppresses chaos.

Clings to routine or spirals without it.

Weight often shows up as water retention, puffiness, hormonal loops.

✧ Syphilitic - Carries doom. All or nothing.

Body is a battleground — either controlled to death or destroyed in rebellion.

Weight is either rigidly denied or gained in self-sabotaging cycles.

✧ Tubercular - Carries restlessness. Wants out. Can’t stay.

Often burns through everything — calories, connections, commitments.

Usually doesn’t hold weight unless freedom has been chronically denied.

✧ Cancer - Carries everything. Hyper-adaptive. Over-attuned.

Feels what others feel and performs perfection as protection.

Weight becomes a buffer — a shield for the sensitivity that never got to speak.

If you’ve been doing everything to lose weight and nothing’s moving…

you might not need a new plan.

You might need to ask:

Whose weight am I carrying? And what would it take to finally put it down?

What Actually Helps

💧 Let it be said. Start with what’s true.

Say it in a journal. To a friend. Out loud in the car. Name what you’re carrying.

🔥 Stop being “fine.” Cry. Rage. Be disappointed.

You don’t have to suffer quietly just because others can’t handle the mess.

🌿 Let the body exhale. Move without performance. Walk. Shake. Stretch.

Not to burn calories — but to melt pressure.

🌙 Support the exits. If your body’s storing too much,

it may be because it can’t eliminate safely.

Breathe, sweat, poop, weep. Let it leave.

🌀 Take your remedy. The right remedy doesn’t fight your weight.

It unhooks the part of you that thinks carrying is what makes you worthy.

It changes the story.

In service to the highest good,

Lindsay

Are you holding it all?

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Read: When Giving Becomes Depletion.